Monday, April 6, 2009 -{'5:41 PM
Title : [ sorry, aint what it seems. ]
right~i decided to post this post using black fonts.
original,
nice,
easy to read.
hms, jst came back after some suki at punggol plaza with liangjie.
din wna come home so early,
but had nothin much to do,
like seriously.
had many things in mind,
yet very hard to fulfill.
have this sudden urge of strawberry shortcake.
hahs,
its never gna be delivered to my doorstep anymore.
i know your trying your best now,
but giving up in a way.
i know its all me ,
but why does it have to end in such a way?
i need awhile,
its me,
i know.
you , you, you and you.
so many yous in my mind.
which you is the real you?
a you is dedicated ,
a you is hard to understand,
a you is insecure,
and a you is one i missed.
sooooo,
what fuck?
arghs.
i jst thought if i aint so fickled minded,
or so paranoid in a way,
(but not as joh is) oops.
NO OFFENCE.
hahs.
i might have jst settled down with a you,
and live my happily ever after fairytale.
am i not right?
LIANGJIE WOULD AGREE. (:
hongguo would too.
and so does johanna THE GREAT ( hope this would make it all up)
so does honey wendy or royston.
or rather august, darren.
hahs, random. x=
missed the old times.
so what,
time can never be turned back,
like as much as you want.
still NO. ):
soooooo,
some regretted being with their loved ones before,
but have you ever asked yourself,
why do i love him/her in the first place?
and dedicate myself to him/her.
like, when you know you two are bound to break up in the end,
why try?
why had you cry when you quarrelled, so terribly.
because, love is unpredictable.
you might say, i regretted.
but what about the lovely moments , or the wonderful times?
aint that meant to be sweet memories?
what happens to the time, you fell, hurt yourself,
and there a hand is out for you to reach for.
soooooooooo,
breakup,
moved on.
you should be happy for each other tht you both moved on right?
like, not getting on your nerves anymore.
hurting the other party is a way to show tht your jealous,
unhappy,
feeling unstable about the other party's life.
or its jst you to do things this way.
hms, chilll peeeeps.
jst wish each other happy,
and farewell! (:
solves the problem, fast and easy.
baby,
im sorry.
i loved you.
but what lies ahead is one obstacle.
a maze.
solve this puzzle before you say you love me.
Sunday, April 5, 2009 -{'4:21 PM
Title : [ goodbyes; harder than it seems. ]
hms,yesterday went cine,
supposedly to eat sakura,
but yet it was fully booked.
so ended up eating some koufu.
and went k garden.
enjoyable moments never last.
was suppose to find the S.A.M machine
august told me theres one at serangoon garden.
so went there with no worries,
to find tht its actually the AXS machine. ):
and there goes my o levels for this year.
funny, aint it?
hahs, re taking at such an awesome year.
right~
jst in case my years in poly jst dont end,
and diploma jst dont come.
i got to do some preparations though.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
forever love?
hahs, it never existed.
i guess.
gooodbyes are really hard,
cant bear to,
but yet,
sorrys are even harder.
you were once my fairytale,
my forever love,
my love,
my life.
i dont know what i'll do without you.
but now,
i got to learn to go without you.
learn to live without you by my side.
waiting use to be familiar.
but not anymore.
you use to be here always,
even on rainy days,
you'll be here.
and now, not even a word.
no misses, no cant bear to, no nothing.
i guess, im at fault,
and yet ive been so stubborn and ridiculous.
we jst might not be meant to be.
people says,
its not worth it.
but yet, i refuse to listen.
and now,
ends up in such awful state.
dirty mess.
whatever.
i'm getting on with my life without you,
jst fine.
please, let me go.
i hate seeing you happy without me,
selfish, i know.
yet, i dont deserve anything.
missedyou.
dynj, loves.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009 -{'10:54 PM
Title : [ warms the heart. ]
hehs, woke up like super early today. ):
but I'M SICK. )):
soooooo sick sick sick!
hms,
but benefits were awarded too! (:
my lunch, my favourite cake, some herbel tea
were delivered specially to my doorstep.
heeeeeeeeeees.
thanks sweeeet! (:
but my sickness aint getting better though. x=
help help help!
ANYONE?!
hms,
stayed at home for the past 2 days.
was wondering about saving money issues.
my goal's to save up to 5 k by end of the year.
which is apparently, impossible,
with my large spending for this whole,
"10 weeks" of holidays.
which is apparently, almost 3 damn months.
and to add on,
i'd not been going to school for the past semester,
so tht makes my holidays, about a whole damn year,
plus many months, & days counting.
and sooooo,
its april fool's day tmr,
and tht means, 20 more days to go.
until school officially starts.
arghs,
new classmates, new facis, new classrooms, new year. new modules! ):
its turning me off.
anyways,
i'm having this whole load of stuffs in my mind tht i got to shop!
lols,
and of course a whole load of matters to be looked upon.
blahhhhhhhhhhhhhs.
a cake
melts the heart,
eased the pain,
livened the spirit.
thanks lovely. (:
but I'M SICK. )):
soooooo sick sick sick!
hms,
but benefits were awarded too! (:
my lunch, my favourite cake, some herbel tea
were delivered specially to my doorstep.
heeeeeeeeeees.
thanks sweeeet! (:
but my sickness aint getting better though. x=
help help help!
ANYONE?!
hms,
stayed at home for the past 2 days.
was wondering about saving money issues.
my goal's to save up to 5 k by end of the year.
which is apparently, impossible,
with my large spending for this whole,
"10 weeks" of holidays.
which is apparently, almost 3 damn months.
and to add on,
i'd not been going to school for the past semester,
so tht makes my holidays, about a whole damn year,
plus many months, & days counting.
and sooooo,
its april fool's day tmr,
and tht means, 20 more days to go.
until school officially starts.
arghs,
new classmates, new facis, new classrooms, new year. new modules! ):
its turning me off.
anyways,
i'm having this whole load of stuffs in my mind tht i got to shop!
lols,
and of course a whole load of matters to be looked upon.
blahhhhhhhhhhhhhs.
a cake
melts the heart,
eased the pain,
livened the spirit.
thanks lovely. (:
Monday, March 30, 2009 -{'6:52 PM
Title : [ ]
Staring at the glass in front of meIs it half empty?
Have I ruined all you've given me?
I know I've been selfish
I know I've been foolish
But look through that and you will see
That I'll do better
I know, baby I can do better
If you leave me tonight
I'll wake up alone
Don't tell me I will make it on my own
Don't leave me tonight
This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies
If you leave me tonight
Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping
I listen to your breathing
Amazed how I somehow managed to
Sweep you off of your feet girl
Your perfect little feet girl
I took for granted what you do
But I'll do better
I know, baby I can do better
please,
stay close, dont go.
-{'6:41 PM
Title : [ stay close, don't go. ]
hahs, right now.at this exact moment.
i'm siting on bed, having a damn flu,
which is never going away.
and, apparently, coughing like theres no tmr.
and yes, I'M SICK. ):
mood's down,
health's down,
breaking down. ):
ARGHS.
Thursday, March 19, 2009 -{'12:50 AM
Title : [ ]
soooooooo,
people always say,
there will always be a rainbow after a storm.
if your lucky, it would be jst one whole stretch right infront of your eyes.
if your not so, mayb it might jst be sort of fading away.
or, it might jst be a clear sky with mr sun coming out .
hms, rainbow can be very beautiful, but yet it comes out only after a terrible storm.
its jst like how people gooooo,
when couple understand each other more,
often is due to after some terrible quarrels or some pathetic situations.
that they actually bond well, and sweetness actually bloomssss.
but still, got to go through so manymanymanymany things.
sickkkk~
nvmmmmm,
life~
how boringggggg.
went to plaza with nothing in mind,
and went home with loads of things crumbling up.
jumbling like fuck. ):
hms,
so what is it about people tht attracts people to people.
okays, seems complicated.
nvm, im soooo jumbled up right now,
why cant you jst make things clearer to me. ):
imissyou,
missedyou so much.
but yet,
i dont know what am i to you.
):
Monday, March 16, 2009 -{'11:46 AM
Title : [ ]
hms,
finally!
5 whole days are over!
hahs,
had been working like hell in the it fair. x=
and, have decided to work in the shop though,
but not very sure whether they would accept me or not.
many things happened,
and retribution came, and went.
lols,
she might just be a girl that's captured your heart,
because of her, appearance, her beauty, her sweetness.
or rather, she might just had been there for you,
for the pass 5 days.
you might think you 2 could work out,
but no,
she's not even abit interested in you,
rather than you not interested in her.
what a day.
so eventually, you came back.
having this life contradiction.
which is incorrigible,
i believed you at first, and yet you took my trust for granted.
you made a scene,
you were angry.
so what? aint others too?
you thought, my heart can be played,
can be easily soften just by a few words, a few expression.
but no,
im not.
i was too stupid to even believe it might be a misunderstanding in the first place.
and so, you asked her out, and yet denied.
but still admitted.
if you want to why not just admit in the first place?
oh, now i get it.
she rejected you, and you didtn want to cause misunderstandings between us.
but if she agreed, you will be so different.
am i not right.
hahs,
LIFE.
reality~
all those words,
were all just a contradiction to defend yourself,
you dont bother about me being utterly hurt.
hahs,
chilllllll~!
i'm having my new life,
so happy, without you in it.
so, go on, see who would be the right one for you.
good luck,
but a word of advice.
not all girls can stand the way you handle things.
(: (: (:
and i missed chelsea!
hahs,
what a wonderful 5 days. (:
finally!
5 whole days are over!
hahs,
had been working like hell in the it fair. x=
and, have decided to work in the shop though,
but not very sure whether they would accept me or not.
many things happened,
and retribution came, and went.
lols,
she might just be a girl that's captured your heart,
because of her, appearance, her beauty, her sweetness.
or rather, she might just had been there for you,
for the pass 5 days.
you might think you 2 could work out,
but no,
she's not even abit interested in you,
rather than you not interested in her.
what a day.
so eventually, you came back.
having this life contradiction.
which is incorrigible,
i believed you at first, and yet you took my trust for granted.
you made a scene,
you were angry.
so what? aint others too?
you thought, my heart can be played,
can be easily soften just by a few words, a few expression.
but no,
im not.
i was too stupid to even believe it might be a misunderstanding in the first place.
and so, you asked her out, and yet denied.
but still admitted.
if you want to why not just admit in the first place?
oh, now i get it.
she rejected you, and you didtn want to cause misunderstandings between us.
but if she agreed, you will be so different.
am i not right.
hahs,
LIFE.
reality~
all those words,
were all just a contradiction to defend yourself,
you dont bother about me being utterly hurt.
hahs,
chilllllll~!
i'm having my new life,
so happy, without you in it.
so, go on, see who would be the right one for you.
good luck,
but a word of advice.
not all girls can stand the way you handle things.
(: (: (:
and i missed chelsea!
hahs,
what a wonderful 5 days. (:
